tula2

I wish I was an Octupus

2004-09-15T16:45:00.000Z

It has been a tough summer and I have been unseasonably busy in work.

Normally the month of August is battery re-charge month for me

as many patient with chronic chest condition have a more settled period.

Not this year.

I don't know if it is the weather or not but the number of exacerbations is well up on last year..

This hasn't allowed me the time I need to work on other aspects of my work which have deadlines looming.

I really wanted to work on "exploring my web space" this summer so that the next round of assignments was not so frantic as the last lot.

No luck I'm afraid.

It has meant that I am struggling to spend time on my journal and have had little time experimenting with a web page.

There are quite a few entries on OCT3 in the communities and once

again I am unable to join in.

I think this really going to be an on going weakness of mine.

There are some very clever people in the community

and you often see their names in there.

How do you match that when you feel you have nothing to say except drivel.

Who the heck am I to comment on someone s work, I know nothing.

I have found working on a web page so difficult and I really have nothing to go in it.

Developing a web site for work will be more complicated because of the confidentiality clauses. It is surprising what we can and can't put in and it will take some work.

Not giving up though

Petula

Caldicott Training

2004-09-15T15:18:00.000Z

There is some rubbish mandatory training within my LHB

but this one was well worth attending!!!

The training covered areas of the Caldicott report mainly to do with Confidentiality.
It is amazing how often confidentiality is broken without you being aware of it, e.g.
leaving the computer, with patient details on,when you leave a room .
Anyone can come into that room and have access to that computer and the patient details.
This is not something personally do but I have seen GP's and other colleagues do this.
There many examples given and I am sure that we all have be guilty of it at some point but I don't think any break in confidentiality is done maliciously. Many insidences sited made you think "oops! I have been guilty of that"It made me think about the position of power I am in and how vunerable patients are. A lot of information is shared about our patients and we need to think about how and when this information is going to be used.

I think that with e-mail and pathlinks etc information will be whizzing around and may be difficult to keep track off.

Perhaps we just need to stop and think a little more before we part with sensitive and personal information.
I know I will be.
Petula

Light relief

2004-09-08T16:46:00.000Z

I had to travel to Bronllys today for some mandatory training on the Caldicott Report.

This is a journey I do regularly, and it is a beautiful run in the car.

I do, however feel a little lonely sometimes so I like to listen to CD's to break the silence.

The car is my stage. I turn the music up very loud and perform the songs, yes, I mean perform. Singing does not quite cover it.

Whilst I was traveling today, I came up behind one of the many army transporter lorries in the area and vaguely registered a group of soldiers in the back.

There was a particularly good song on CD and I was singing my heart out, when I glanced up at the lorry 4 soldiers were kneeling in a row all clicking their fingers and swaying side to side just like a backing group, all grinning widely.

I blushed scarlet but laughed all the way to Bronllys after receiving a cheery wave from the boys when the turned off.

It was a good start to the day.

Petula

OCT3

2004-09-07T18:37:00.000Z

Here we go again!!

Started to read little red flags that have come out of hiding in FC.

Couple of people have started talking about web spaces, developing websites and the like.

Why is it that I don't understand what is being asked of me and yet everyone else does.

I seem to be taking one step forward and three backwards.

I wonder if I will ever feel anything less than thick?

I have decided that I really am not an academic and perhaps show accept that instead of beating myself up about it. After all, there has be people like me around so that the brightest people have someone to be compared against.

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On a work note.

One of the things I identified as requiring work on

was my reluctance to take on the managerial part of my job.

Well this has really taken off.

Since completing the fist assignment I have thrown my self into it and

am now enjoying the challenge.

I have taken the lead role for development of 3 major policies affecting Respiratory health which have either been or in the process of being ratified and then implement throughout Powys.

I have written a job description for 2 f grade nurse and am developing a profile and level of competency document to use in the Link nurse scheme.

all this work has been received very well, and it was all new to me.

Ii feel really pleased with my self and also feel that I have grown more confident.

I do, however, still have a problem discussing anything face to face with senior management , this is more to do with shyness and lack of personal confidence I think.

2004-09-03T16:56:00.000Z

Wednesday 1/9/04 I returned to work after a long weekend off to

find most of YCH in a blind panic.

Why?

One positive case of TB. My phone was on melt down and people, mostly fellow nurse were almost hysterical because they couldn't get hold of me.

After many hours between then and now, spent trying to alleviate peoples concerns whilst trying to establish direct contacts with this poor patient who by now felt like some form of leper.

Finally calm has been restored.

It wasn't until now that I had realized how much fear there was for this condition. The fear was mainly from middle aged people most of whom had never come in contact with the condition so it seemed a bit extreme to me. Elderly patients who had first hand experience of it took it in their stride.

I think this highlighted how complacent we all become when we think a disease has been eradicated. We have no coping mechanisms in place to deal with such things and also people want others to deal with it for them.

TB is a terrible disease but very treatible today. The problem arises when patients do not take the medication, for what ever reason, and the "bug" become resistant. Then we are really in trouble as it mutates and healthy people then become at risk.

As a specialist nurse have several people with TB in my case load and I never worry about cross infection. Perhaps this has lead me to be a bit blase and so other colleagues reactions have taken me a back a bit.

On reflection, after long discussions with staff and public I feel that lack of knowledge has led to this panic.

I have subsequently arranged several open discussion sessions for staff and lay folk to attend to be given correct research based information and education which will hopefully allay there fears.

Hopefully I will return next Monday to a calmer lace of work.

Petula

A strange Day

2004-08-26T18:01:00.000Z

What a strange Day it has been today.

Well in fact it has been a strange and very busy week.

But today was the strangest. I had to see two very ill patients before am this morning.

Both needed hospital admission which was divastating for them as we had worked so hard to keep them at home, and then something entirely unconnected happened and admission

was the only option.

I worry that this may be more detrimental than beneficial.

Sometimes the very elderly become disoriented when removed from familiar surroundings and they then appear confused, this can worry relatives and in some cases lead to the patient being placed in Nursing Homes etc when really all they need is time to adapt.

This week has seen both these things happen and it was only pressure from the family and myself that allowed the lady concerned to come home, after 2 days back home she settled back to her normal, sharp, if slightly prickly self, a real feisty character.

I often think that more support offered by the Caring professions and services would allow patients, even those who live alone, to stay in their own homes which is often the best place for them to be. This is not always the case but sometimes all avenues are not explored before a decision is made, perhaps more education should be made available to relatives and careers so that an informed choice can be made. All to often they are "encouraged" to place relatives into residential care without these options being explored and evaluated first.

A sad situation !!!

Petula

A Job well done

2004-08-24T17:10:00.000Z

To day I have complete a piece of work

for my new link nurse scheme.

I have really slogged at this and have received no help as usual.

However, this is all part of my plan to develop

my managerial skills. This, I high-lighted in my first module, is a weakness of mine.

I hadn't realized how much this resistance to this part of my job had been holding me back.

Fear of the unknown and no confidence in my ability didn't help.

Now I am more prepared to"give it a go" If I do my best, then any failure will

not be from the lack of trying.

Recently I feel far more positive in my work place and have revisited the original

questionnaire I did.

I think, from what my colleagues are reporting, that my new attitude is

becoming more evident, but a few have said that they have noticed

that say "NO" more often now.

They were quick to point out that this is only in cases where I am really pushed for time,

so I didn't feel to bad about it.

Sometimes I think that wanting to be a friend to everyone can bring its own problems.

Still I wouldn't change it.

I like being nice to people, there is enough nastiness in this world!!!!

Petula

URLS/info found for creating a web page

2004-08-23T16:50:00.000Z

Tutorials by David Karlins

" Choosing a Web Authoring Tool
" Eight Steps to Implementing a Web Site
" Step 1: Grabbing a Domain Name
" Step 2: Publishing Your Web Content - Finding a Web Server Provider
" Step 3: Develop Your Web Strategy
" Step 4: Design and Create Your Site
" Step 5: Publish and Test Your Site
" Step 6: Promoting Your Site
" Part I: From CorelDRAW to the Web
" Part II: Creating Web Page Background JPEG Files
" Part III: Creating a Hover Button in CorelDRAW

Complete Idiot's Guide to Flash Tutorials

" Flash 5 Tutorial 3: Using Masking in an Animation
" Flash 5 Tutorial 2: Creating a Logo with a Shape Transition
" Flash 5 Tutorial 1: Create a Splash Screen

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Some of the web pages i have been looking at.

Petula

Creating a web page

2004-08-23T09:19:00.000Z

Over the last 2 weeks I have spent a lot of time "surfing" the net looking for sites that may help me to create a web page. I thought I would use the Home Page in FC to practice. It is mind blowing.
I have collected quite a few urls and information and even had a go at creating my own Logo. I have worked really hard at this but as of yet have not drawn it all together and taken the next step.
I was discussing this "brave new venture" on my part with Mike my husband. Mike is a techno whizz but I have avoided asking for any help from him as I need to "learn by doing" rather than be shown. Mike says he is very impressed with how far I have progressed and learned considering I was more basic than a nursery school child at the computer.(my words not his).
There are times when I do feel quite pleased with myself, that is until I peak at other peoples urls or bloggs. This is when my confidence plummets. Others are setting up FURLS/WIKE's etc and I here am I.
I can't even begin to compete and can't help believing that those who are more able will race ahead of me.
I feel I have that even though I am working very hard I have no way of showing this as the evidence will be judged on the submitted work, and I have no way of actually proving that I have put in the work.
My understanding of techno speak or indeed what the activities require is not always clear so I seem to be dragging behind.
I have also discovered that keeping a LJ in this form is making me hold back some of the things I feel and have reflected on.
It seems I can't settled at the moment and am once again considering my future on this cours

A barrier overcome

2004-08-17T16:45:00.000Z

A meeting with very senior manager about vision for developing future servicesin respiratory health.
Anyone who knows me knows that i am manager phobic and I was dreading this meeting.
However I decided to employ some of the things i had uncovered during my reflections module.
I accepted even before the meeting that this person would be under her own pressures and that I would not pre judge the situation.
What a useful meeting. she listen closely to my propsals and the fact that I had highlighted some of the possible obsticles and more importantly how we make get around them.
She did ask me to do some prep work but I managed to get the deadline extended after I explained about some of the other project I was working on and that were near completion.
I even had time to talk about FC and my plans to use any new skills I have gained.
I feel that by approaching the whole session in a more positive way we both felt that the meeting was fruitful and some of the myths I had built up were dispelled.
I'm not really sure what has brought about my increasing confidence but I am sure that some of it can be attributed to what i have learned about myself during the last 2 modules.
Petula

wallowing

2004-08-17T06:50:00.000Z

Ok! ignore last entry. Was I wallowing or what? Still I felt better after getting out of my system.
Been trying to understand next OCT module and making sense of what Hamish said about publising on line. So far it is as clear as mud.
Is creating this Blogg and the somewhat basic Home page I have tried to create, constitute exploring my spaces?
Is it going to become clearer as time goes on. I was hoping to get an early start but If i don't understand what I am supposed to do, how can I?
how can i make my blogg more interesting? What is acceptable or not? So many questions not enough answers.
Petula

2004-08-17T05:03:00.000Z

I think there is a conspiracy against me now. After struggling to get into this dam thing for days when I finally make an entry something went wrong when I published and lost the lot again. Really fed up now.
On top of that can't swollow hughly bruised ego!!! Yep pretented to myself that I would settle for a pass in 1st module but was bitterly dissappointeed with my 58%
In spite of all the problems I had both technical and personal I worked really hard on the module trying to meet the deadline but thats all I got.
If someone works to the best of their ability and comes out middle of the road, average. Does that mean that she should settle for that and dissappear into a sea of average, or, should she stumble on and try to achieve a higher mark even though she has done her best? I don't know.
Made the mistake of reading other peoples bloggs only to discover a lot of 70% so felt even worse, (but happy for the high achievers).
Now we have to "explore our space" What does that mean, I have no idea. Got to stop now feel dispondent and ready to quit.
Petula
ps don't know if a blogg is such a good idae after all.

2004-08-12T15:14:00.000Z